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Ancient Combatants and the Flying Disc

November 3, 2008

Last night, I was reading my book Ruled by Secrecy by Jim Marrs, when I dozed off and had a dream of two ancient soldiers in combat with each other. They were both shielded. The weaker of the two had a round bronze type of shield and he was overtaken by the stronger soldier, whose shield seemed to be more squarish. The stronger of the two had his foot standing on top of the shield of his weaker opponent, pinning his opponent facedown to the ground. Then in what seemed to be an act of mercy, he stepped off the shield, to allow his weaker opponent a respite. Immediately his opponent stood up and lunged forward and produced a spear that went through the jugular (where the neck met the torso) of his generous opponent. And that is where this particular dream ended and I woke up to turn off the lights and got into bed.

During the night I had another dream, one which was far more disturbing. In the dream, I stepped outside of my parent’s house to find all these people and young adults milling about. It was very late at night. Suddenly, a fog set in and in the fog I saw a huge flying disc with a globe descend rapidly. For some reason I knew this was bad. I told people not to go near it. Some people ran off, but others’ remained transfixed by the UFO. The flying disc was huge, bigger than my parent’s house, hovering above us. Suddenly, the small globe underneath it started to glow with different colors and patterns. People were tempted to goto it and in doing so they were impaled by a tentacle and taken onboard the flying ship. I tried to ignore it and other people also did. The flying disc tried a new tactic to lure people; it shut off all of its lights – the globe underneath became black. Some people thought it things were ok, but no sooner had they entered the danger zone, they were impaled by the tentacles and brought onboard. Not quite sure how this dream ended – but I woke up very distraught over this dream.

Mind Control in my Dreams

September 24, 2008

Last night I had a dream about trying to access hidden parts of my mind but was unable to. At first I saw a room that was lobby like, but I was refused entry by security guards. Later I found myself inside the lobby area trying to advance forward, but just as I started moving I felt a force holding me back and suddenly the security guards surrounded me escorting me out. In the dream, I constantly would try and try to access and reclaim the room (or rather my mind), but then I would be pushed back out. I could never really hold on to anything…and each time I entered, I felt more powerful and could remember tidbits of myself more. But each time I got pushed out, those tidbits were claimed by whoever occupied and claimed my mind. Finally I tried another time and this time found myself walking in through the lobby. I shouted out “I’m here!” letting whoever know that I was back to reclaim my space and mind.

I continued walking down the hall and little bit and around the corner were I saw what looked like a Musuem (there was displays inside glass cases everywhere and books and pamphlets everywhere). There was also an elevator. For some reason I found myself carrying a briefcase. I started grabbing books and pamphlets and soon after I felt the force pushing me out back into the hallway into the lobby and eventually out to my mind. The security guards appeared again, but among them was a man who looked very businesslike and muscular. He spoke to me very clearly at the time and mentioned the briefcase. He told me to put the books and pamphlets into the briefcase, for which some reason I did, partially. As I was being escorted out, he began to laugh and as I was nearing the exit, he shouted out that my briefcase was empty and that what I had taken was reclaimed by him. I opened the brifcase to find it empty of contents. He was still laughing when I exited. I did however have some pamphlets in my hand, so i felt I made some progress. The rest of the dream was myself and some friends trying to figure out how to access my mind from the pamphlets I had grabbed. It was slow progress but I was able to reclaim some portion of my mind and who I was permanently. The dream ended not too long after.

This is remniscient of another dream about someone controlling my mind/actions, not too long ago. Not sure if I catalogued it, but here is the gist of it

Well I had a dream where I was living my life like normal, except every couple of years or so, a man would appear which gave me the chills and creeps. I would see him and for some reason I felt uneasy about him and then later I would realize that I met this person many times before, but i would always forget about him. Anyways, he would come by me and things would just happen around me as if I wasn’t there {but I was there]. Its kinda hard to explain. Anyways one day I was working on my computer/keyboard desk and I felt a prescence behind me and I turned very quickly and it was as if I hit a brick wall. The man was there again, and this time his voice was booming in my head giving me instructions and I was feeling so powerless and I felt like I was becoming smaller and smaller in size. In the dream, I knew this person, but I didnt want to know him because I felt dirty – I never really remembered what took place after he would arrive, there is blackness, and then he’s gone until the next time.

Thunder Explosions, Talking Griffin Dogs, and a Nosebleed

September 9, 2008

Last night, at three in the morning, my spouse and I woke up to what sounded like an explosion of sound. It was lightning and thunder. With a jolt, my spouse exlaimed loudly “My God!” I too woke with a jolt, right in the middle of my sleep. In the other room my youngest stepson began to call for mom, as the thunder/explosion woke him up as well. Mom got up and calmed him down a little bit and then she went to the bathroom. Not too long after, I saw a flash and the sound of another explosion of thunder right outside our bedroom window. As a result of this, my youngest stepson began to cry. i immediatley got up and went into his room and kneeled at his bedside. He then held me as the rain started falling and the thundering continued. The rest of the time, it thundered and lightning, but not like those two explosions that initially woke us up. I notice however that my stepson, as he was holding me with his arms, that he had a bloody nose. I turned on the lights and indeed, his nose was bleeding. After getting him some kleenex, his mother came in and then went downstairs to check on my other stepson. Lo and behold, my oldest stepson slept through all that commotion! The storm and rain continued. Our youngest stepson was given a flashlight and he went back to sleep.

Talking with my spouse, she mentioned that she had dreams of men trying to get at us just as the the thunder explosions took place which jolted her awake. Here is her dream account in her words:

“We woke up around 3:00 a.m.

“I can only remember bits and pieces of the dream, and I’m not sure in which order these events occurred in the dream. The main “plot” of the dream, however, was that there were these two men who were basically after us. I never came to understand why, but they were trying to hurt/kill us. We were in the basement of our house, and I picked up a receipt for something. I cannot remember what it was for – something from a hardware store? – and I looked up and saw one of the men in the window. Even though I only saw one, somehow I knew there were two. The one I saw was a little heavy set, balding and wearing jeans and wife beater. Brown, leather beat. I could see his full form from head to toe. He was just standing there and we suddenly (somehow) became aware that the house was about to be blown up. But instead of going outside, we ran upstairs to the highest level of the house and escaped the explosion.

“Our house destroyed, we took refuge in some ratty little apartment. I still had the receipt in my hand, which somehow linked the explosion to the man outside the window. I was showing it you, and because of whatever it said, you became convinced that the man was involved. I had my cell phone, but the charge was just about out, and I had no way to re-charge it, as my cell phone charger was destroyed in the explosion. I used what little charge I had left to try to call the police. I had a large phone book out and was looking up the phone number. I don’t think I ever got through, though.

“I believe this portion of the dream occurred after the explosion. There were these large, dog/griffin like creatures in the street outside of our apartment – 2 male, 2 female. The males were larger than the females. They were black with long hair/fur. Their eyes were very green. They did not have wings, like a true griffin, but they had large bodies and paws like dogs but faces like griffins. The street was very dark and wet as if it had just rained. I remember there being other people in the street, and I believe I went outside to try to dispel whatever was going on with these creatures bothering people. I spoke to one of the females, but I can’t remember what we said to each other. The creatures then left, and I indicated to someone (or just thought to myself?) that it’s the males you have to fear, but the females are negotiable.

“There was a scene at some point where I was in a basement-like space. White tiles on the floor, flourescent lighting overhead. It was set up like a cafeteria with tables and benches for seating. This was apparently where I worked. My co-workers were all about eating lunch, presumably, and were taking up money to go in on something for lunch. I didn’t have any money. Our home had been destroy, you know? I still had ash on my face and dirty clothes. One of my co-workers lit into me about not contributing any money to the pool for lunch, and I told her that I didn’t have any, that my ex-husband doesn’t pay child support and I gave her another excuse I cannot remember right now. But I remember waking up and thinking, “Why didn’t I tell her our house had been blown up?” and I wanted to go back into the dream to tell her that, but then we had all the commotion.

That’s all I can remember.”

A Nightmare, A Dream, and A Visit

September 2, 2008

I haven’t had a paralysis event for quite some time now, at least not for a year since I moved in with my fiance and her sons. Since I moved in, the youngest (who I shall refer to as C) I realize has had night terrors much longer than he has known me.. He sometimes describes seeing things during the night. Last night two events took place that made me think this may be more than just a “sleep paralysis” event. Here is what happened last night:

Early morning on September 2, around 3:30, my fiance and I were both woken up by C (my 8-year old soon to be step-son). He had called out in the middle of the night for mom. I was woken out of a dream I was having and immediately went into his room and my fiancee followed. He had a nightmare and was scared. He did not want to recall his nightmare. A few times that night he called out and said he couldnt sleep and we ended up going back to bed. At around 4:11, C came into our bedroom and said that he could see things in the light (he was referring to the hall light outside his room that was on) and that he was still unable to sleep. He could not describe what he saw, but he did say that there were many things he saw. Finally we got him to go back to bed.

For awhile I just laid in bed next to my fiance, with my arm across her holding her in an embrace. I was dozing and having intermittened dreams, one of which was about C. We were in a place resembling a cinema and C was all alone sitting before the screen. Something was on the screen but unable to view it, and I could see the man running the film projector suddenly stopping the film and putting something else on. When the projector stopped, it felt like everything shut down and I was afraid this was related to C and his dreams. In fact when I saw the man changing the reel, I felt that this would stop development on some fundamental part for C. I woke out of this dream still in the same position I was, my arm embracing my fiance. I must have been thinking about things, as I laid awake.

All of a sudden I heard a clamor/ruckus taking place below our room (our bedrooms are on the second floor). I heard THUD! THUD! THUD! THUD! throughout the house, as if someone had just entered the house and stomping loudly as it ran throughout the place to make itself heard and known. But I knew something wasn’t right, as our dog did not bark. The feeling that a foreign intrusive prescence was making itself known in the house was frightening and then I felt it pass through me from the floor below, in which case my entire body became tingly with sensation and I saw in my mind’s eye, shimmering blue light. This did not last very long as fear envoloped me. My body was paralyzed, although I could move my eyes. I looked over at my fiance who was calm and her eyes closed, and I tried to shake her with my arm, but I could not move my arm. I tried to squeeze her arm with my hand, but again I had no luck. I couldnt get my fingers to move. I then tried to call her name, but my voice came out, or at least I thought I did, as a whisper. She must have heard something as she woke up and saw me and asked me if everything was alright. It was only then that the paralysis broke, the tingly sensation was gone and the feeling of another presence vanished. I was no longer afriad. In light of C’s earlier night terror incident, I wonder if somehow my paralysis event is related?

When everything was calm my fiance related that she saw me and that it looked like I was having difficulty breathing. She said that my eyes were wide open and that I was not sleeping. And that I was cold to touch and that I had goosebumps. I was so relieved when I saw her wake up.

I felt like this spirit/entity was sending me a message and I do not like it at all. I think its message was that it exists and it made sure that I knew that.

To Swallow Eternity in a Yawn

June 28, 2007

I am unable to date this particular dream, other than it took place after the year June 2000 sometime, but before my History as Judge dream.  The dream itself was rather shocking and terrifying, only because, it left me feeling I was going to go stark raving mad.  In my dream, I saw a vast heath and a multitude of people that seemed endless.  As I watched this scene unfold, I saw that the population of this multitude was growing exponentially and I saw people on top of people filling up the vastness of my mind. And then the earth below me shook and as I looked, the earth itself opened up and the millions of people I saw instantly were swallowed, wiped out, gone before me.  It happened so fast, it was staggering. I could barely comprehend what I was seeing. And before I could get a grasp of it the cycle of historic violence began again. 

As the earth closed itself another age and epoch came in which the vast heath became heavily populated with people, until it too filled my mind.  I could hear the voices of select individuals claiming and addressing their grievances trying to be heard but unable in this fray. As time went on and the earth became heavy with people, I felt the earth tremble below me and I became afraid.  And before I could think of what I could do, the earth tore open again and millions upon millions of people vanished from my sight in the blink of an instant.  Anguish and pain soared through my brain and my conscience.  I felt helpless and powerless, and yet I felt responsible for having witnessed these events and having done nothing to stop it. 

Again, another age and epoch came and people filled the land and populated the earth heavily and even faster than before, in greater numbers reaching billions.  I found I could not move, that I was to continuously watch the devouring of the human race throughout the ages, to understand what was at stake.  And I became afraid because I simply could not take it anymore. It felt like my mind was going to break.  What disturbed me the most was how the earth, conscious and alive, was able to swallow in an instant such a magnitude of human life without so much of a thought or sense of guilt.  In a sense, the horrible and terrible notion that eternity and life could be swallowed in a yawn. 

Vision: Entrapped in a Stain of Glass

June 14, 2007

Around 2000 or 2001 while at work, I had a peculiar experience take place while I was reading  – if my memory serves me correctly – Fanon’s The Wretched of the Earth in the break room.  All I remember was that at one moment I was reading my book and the next moment I was seeing a stain glass window and within a stick figure encased into the pattern of colors.  There was slight vibration along the outline of this figure, like the movement of the wings of a fly, very fast and very short. The movement continued and for awhile I am just watching it complacently.  Eventually the wheels of my brain began moving and I realized that this movement wasn’t abstract, it was alive and deliberate.  This figure encased in the window was trying to break free of the mold of the stain glass.  It was conscious. The more I watched, the stronger and more violent the vibrations became and at certain times, I could see his head completely move back and forth completely free, but only to be forced back into the pattern of the glass.  This did not deter the figure in any way, but only increased his resolve to break free.  Finally, in a tumult of violent shaking, his head swung free again and he slipped out of the pattern and the entire window around him shattered.  It was at this point, my vision faded and I found myself sitting in the break room looking up at the wall opposite me, suddenly filled with the realization that I had no idea how much time had passed…my book was overturned on the table. 

My mind was sent reeling: What had just happened, what did I just see? The one particular thing that bothered me was that I had no idea how this started.  Yet the vision itself I could definitely relate to Frantz Fanon himself, especially in another work of his I had read, Black Skin, White Masks – a book about how colonialism and racism forced blacks to adapt to its adverse affects and to completely control his actions and thoughts. 

The Stain Glass window reinforced this notion. 

The Dagger and the Giant

January 19, 2007

I wanted to share with you a dream I had last night. Actually this is a second time I dreamt this.  In my dream there was quite alot of incoherency taking place, as do all dreams when they first start out, and out of this incoherency I saw two women in a room.  There in the room was a large-sized map laid out on a table in which I saw great land masses, mountain ranges, and systems of rivers.  The one woman spoke to the other – relating some news of some kind.  The other woman’s response was outrage and anger at somebody – who was not present in the room. Vowing vengeance of some kind ["The Scorpion!" she cried] she withdrew a dagger which she immediately stabbed the map that was on the table.  The dagger went through an area of a large river.  The weird thing was – just as she did this – I was suddenly transported to this very place in the physical, watching an enormous blade of the dagger coming down from the clouds into the large blue river in which I saw ancient navy vessels of some sort.  The enormous blade began moving down the river (it was huge) seeking whomever it was seeking to impose its wrath upon.  I followed it as I saw we were passing small towns and cities on the river – of an ancient people who were frightened by this enormous dagger.  This was not the first time they had seen such a thing and they were very scared by it.  I could see small people fishing in the river and the enormous dagger moved through their fishing waters – just following the river in all its turns and stretches – like a shark.  Then I found myself in an area by the river in a fog.  The blade of the dagger nowhere to be found, but I still had the feeling it was still searching down the river.  Out of the fog I saw two enormous hands cupped together and in the palms of these hands were frightened people.  The fog cleared and before me I saw an enormous giant.  He was all furry and he was moving quickly down the river with all these small people in his hands.  And as he was carrying them to safety, I could hear this meditative hum [almost like the choir of angels] which gradually grew louder and then the sound of his every step which shook the earth.  And then my dream ended as my alarm went off…  

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Guided by the Spirit of Native American Angels

September 9, 2005

Not sure exactly how to describe this dream.  I fell asleep on the couch, woke up at 4am went to my room and tried to sleep but couldn’t.  I had two hours before I had to get up for work.  About an hour later I was getting sleepy again and I fell in and out of sleep with intermitten dreams.

This is what I remember. 

I remember a tall young man striding through what seemed to be a mansion of sorts, and as he was striding he was bringing his hands out in front of him together as in a prayer but then would separate his hands far and wide but still out in front of his chest.  He kept repeating this ritual of bringing his hands together and then spreading his arms wide over and over again.  He had long black hair, and a black shirt.  He also looked asian/native. 

Suddenly there were others like him [like duplicates] striding along with him, performing the same ritual simulatenously keeping in step with one another, as if it was a marching platoon.  Roughly there were about 6 in a row [all of which had a column of hundreds, thousands, millions of others]. My vantage point was from the side looking at the profile of this “platoon” of duplicates marching and passing in front of me as in review.  I then noticed the one duplicate [duplicate for lack of a better word] the farthest from me, did not look like the rest.  Rather in fact he was bigger and he looked more American Native, with an oversized head and long flowing silky black hair. Also this Native [who resembled the other duplicates in appearance] seemed to be a “spirit” as it floated next to this “platoon”. It was simply a head flotaing in sync with the march. It looked forward and straight as if it was suggesting that it was guiding them through history.  This Native also wore a black and red shawl over his shoulder.  I then realized that the closest duplicate to me also looked like a Native American spirit.  It was just as large, and also had a shawl over it’s shoulders.  It also had white angel wings. I noticed the other Spirit also had wings as well. 

Column 1 and Column 6 all transformed into these Native American Guardian Angels.

Diagram of the “platoon” from above:

GGGGGGGGGGGGGGG  [Column 1]
DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD  }
DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD  }
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGG  [Column 6]

                ^
               me
    (My vantage point)

G = Guardian Native Angel 
D = Duplicate of Asian/Native youth  
} = 2 rows

It seemed that they were protecting the people inside who were marching.  And as they did so, the entire rank and file – formation began to take off into the sky like jets taking off of a carrier following each other.  As I saw the entire columns flying up into the air, I noticed that the duplicates looked nothing like they had before.  They were skeletons but not of human origin but that of a beastly origin. They were huge, immense, ghastly looking.  They reminded me of H.R. Giger’s skeletons. The angels were still there and began to fill up the immense firmament until my eyes could see nothing but angels and their wings across my vision.  There were so numerous that I began to see Native American patterns to represent each and every angel. In fact the patern itself was quite simple and I say Native because that is what it reminded me of.  I felt like I was looking into an entire universe of repeated patterns so vast I could barely comprehend.

=O|| =O|| =O|| =O|| =O|| =O|| =O|| =
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Each =O|| represented an angel.  “=” and “||” were the wings attached to the body “O”. And when they changed flight or direction the “||” changed to “\\”.  The shift in flight happened in unison…so now the pattern looked like this:

=O\\ =O\\ =O\\ =O\\ =O\\ =O\\ =O\\ =
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Then they reminded me of stars in the heavens and soon after I woke up the entire dream still fresh in my memory.

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